Numinous Fucking

you are a beautiful work of art

a creation direct from the soul of the divine

a masterpiece brought to life

animated with the breath of the big bang

lit by the light of the stars

wrapped in clouds and stained with earth

pulled from the heart of all that is beauty

made man

i seek to embrace the umbilical you

where man meets maker

the intersection of your divine wow

and your humanity

coming together to shake hands

with my inner gods and goddesses

to explore the sacred sanctum of my holiest hideout

and enrapture you with my blissful connections

to the point of light

from which we all emanate

pull from me

the energy you seek

i lay before you

a tomboy and a woman,

a soul and a pussy,

a body aflame with desire

that never extinguishes

even under the threat of all kinds

of misanthropy

opened to each other

we will find what we seek

joined in the now

we commingle forever

protein strands intertwined

as you travel through my glorious

black hole

over the event horizon

into our numinous fucking universe

Empty Shell

Chasing away the ones I want

My energy burns too bright.

Holding, chafing, you escaping

As usual I hold too tight

My desire unrefined

My plans were not concrete

Now nothing else that I encounter

Can make me feel complete

That empty aching in my heart

My body brought to rest

not having felt your skin's soft touch

Your face held to my breast

Where once you were a muse to me

I now feel stark and hollow

Your touch could light my soul on fire

Your words I sought to follow

Have mercy on me, I beseech

Take pity, hear my plea

Just once I want to feel you move

To have your skin on me

If ever then I relegate

This trembling, scorched desire

Somewhere out of reach of love

The consequences dire

No more will I feel this pain

No longer will I tremble

Now my outsides match my in

The shell that I resemble

Cracked and torn, antagonized

I need some time to heal

Til then I'll think of you and sigh

There's nothing left to do but deal....

Goodnight, Sweetheart

I just found out that the daughter of a very good friend has passed away.
She was only seventeen.

I've always known that this was coming. She was born with cystic fibrosis and has spent a good portion of her short life in the hospital or on some kind of breathing apparatus. Year after year we participated in the CF Walk and various CF spaghetti dinners, cookie sales, and other things to help their family raise money for CF research.

It sounds weird, but I never really expected this to happen. Their family and daughter have been part of my life for so many years that CF just seemed like a way of life.
I almost forgot it's also a cause of death.
Part of my heart goes with young L. and her family, all of whom I love dearly. I will always remember you, sweet girl, with a song in my heart, remembering all the ways you brought life and love to those around you. You who knew from the very start that your life would be brief, had a way of packing more life into the time you had than most people who lived much longer but merely existed.
We are going to miss you so much.

Blood in the Color of Me

Cast aside

Not by design

My ego

must be satisfied

Forgive? Forget?

For you my love

Revenge

Is what I'm thinking of

Cut so deep

Won't hurt me twice

Now hold still

While I make this slice

An empty soul

and in the end

Love's never

Something to pretend

You won't forget

where I once stood

Nothing will ever

come to good

Now shut your mouth

and on your knees

My ego's what you're

here to please

No one will leave me

bruised and battered

feeling like

I never mattered

Watch carefully

while I strip your veins

You never will

forget my name.

The Hungering

take me

break me

don't forsake me

wake me

nothing else but you

can slake me


you opened

this flood

my blood

transfixed

you inspire

indescreet desire

my fiery boat

through the river styx

Bound and burned

your soul has yearned

nothing more than finding

someone else to do the binding

touch

fantastic

penetrate

pyroclastic


through you, through me

through time and space

immortality

see god's own face